NonFiction

Self Portrait Then and Now, acrylic on canvas by Margaret Karmazin

What Delights Await

“How can I change? How can I be changed?” Those questions floated into my consciousness last August as I strolled along the scenic Hudson River and passed a historic white and red lighthouse, girded in black mesh in preparation for renovations. When I moved to Tarrytown in 2021 I was drawn by its proximity to New York City and had yet to become entranced with the continual wonder, comfort, and revelations I’d receive during daily walks.

 

As the lighthouse undergoes changes, so too do I. I began my forty-eighth year of teaching in September 2022 wondering how I could best utilize my experience, wisdom, and empathy with my freshmen who were still adjusting to in-person instruction after the isolation of Covid-19.  Opportunities soon arose. I encouraged a foreign exchange student who experienced an unexpected medical emergency and hospitalization to continue her classes. Another student who’d suffered emotional issues in earlier semesters expressed, with a beatific smile, how she’d sought appropriate help and again felt confident. One ardent student, an older gentleman working as a paramedic, lost his partner to a drug overdose and was severely depressed. I contacted my college’s mental health department; he thanked me for caring and interceding for his welfare.

“I’m planning a trip to Spain,” a travel agent friend stated during the winter. “Interested?” Of course I was. A goal for 2023 was to increase my travel, including travel abroad. My sister and I flew to Spain at the end of August. I joined an on-line Spanish language learning class and was so intrigued each day that I studied at least two hours. While I was far from fluent by the time I traveled, the musicality of the Spanish language invited me to gain proficiency and to continue learning once I returned home. I enrolled in Beginning Spanish at a local college.

“How’s the pool at your condo?” a son asked as we dined. “We offer lessons at my park,” he stated. Two days later I stood in cool water as one of his best lifeguards instructed me.

“You got this,” Camilla encouraged. As I relaxed, she helped me trust myself. With her guidance, I did. At the end of the lessons, I sought out additional skills development and confidence. Angela, whose expertise with teaching adults matched her enthusiasm for doing so, enhanced my abilities and made swimming joyful.

In March 2023, I celebrated my seventieth birthday, surrounded by my children, my sister, and my love. Eric entered my life, quite unexpectedly and totally welcomed, during my move in 2021. We talk, laugh, enjoy, console, celebrate one another and take walks past the lighthouse. Our passion is amazing.

The lighthouse was completely renovated by Spring 2025. Both it and I exude strength, resilience, and enduring beauty.

Numerous photographs of twin grandsons born in 2024 are posted on my refrigerator door. One day soon, I’ll bring them to tour the lighthouse.

How can I be changed?

I can’t wait to discover what delights await.

 

 

Nice Girl
by Julia Carol Folsom

  It’s November 1963, in a small town in rural Georgia. Teenager Callie Ingram is lonely and grieving the death of her beloved Nana, the only mother she’s ever known. Callie’s stuck with her stoic, inept dad and rebellious older sister. There are constant fights at home, and money is scarce. To escape the turmoil and earn a little income, Callie takes a part-time job as a waitress in a diner. And there she meets the man who will upend her life. Nick Gamble, a charismatic, married businessman with a family, is twice her age and looks like a movie star. He charms the naive Callie into a love affair that must be kept secret from the town at any cost. When Callie's sister goes missing and her dad’s health fails, she becomes her father's caretaker, all the while keeping up “A” grades, her job, and liaisons with Nick. But it turns out Nick has troubles of his own. As he becomes increasingly unavailable, Callie’s love edges toward obsession. Then Nick's world explodes, and Callie's alone again, this time facing the most excruciating decision of her life. Available from Amazon and Bookshop.

Bio


Valerie Mathews, 72, is a senior adjunct professor of English living in Tarrytown, NY. She belongs to writing and book groups, and frequents New York City. Among her many interests are swimming, yoga, theatre, studying Spanish, and expanding her travel abroad. She’s learning to play the banjo and endeavors to share her love for exploring new countries and customs with her delightful twin grandsons.
Margaret Karmazin’s credits include stories published in literary and SF magazines, among them Rosebud, Chrysalis Reader, Persimmon Tree, North Atlantic Review, Mobius, Confrontation, Pennsylvania Review, The Speculative Edge, Aphelion, AnotherRealm and The Rabbit Hole. Her stories in The MacGuffin, Eureka Literary Magazine, Licking River Review and Mobius were nominated for Pushcart awards.

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